Your soul wants to evolve

Your soul wants to evolve

by | Aug 1, 2021 | Blog

“I feel like I’m turning a corner” I said to my friend on our coffee date .. realising as I said it that I’d said it before. I was following a new teacher, studying something inspiring, FEELING like I was evolving.

I’d been on a mission to improve my life for years with constant learning and studying .. getting glimmers of hope through the process. And yet, I still seemed to be ‘stuck’. As we chatted, one of us had the thought .. yes, I WAS turning a corner .. because I was going round in circles. My ego had outsmarted me. While my soul was striving for expansion, my ego was helping me FEEL like I was expanding, but I was in my comfortable old pattern of gathering information, with dopamine hits from each spark of insight. This was how I’d always been .. a lover of learning .. my ego was smack bang in it’s happy place.

The battle between the soul and the ego

Your soul desires evolution
But your ego wants nothing to change.
Your soul desires freedom.
Your ego desires safety.
Your soul operates on love.
Your ego operates on fear.

This is the push-pull of life as a human.

A matter of life or death

So what does it take to expand into our potential? How do we break free of the limitations of our thinking and our past patterns? How do we transcend our everyday reality.

The answer is simple (but not easy). We need to LEAP.

The big leap

The soul’s expansion feels like death to the ego .. a break from the way things have ‘always’ been. But being caught in the web of attachments and patterns created by the ego is like death to the spirit. So .. how do we break free of the clutches of ego, of the old patterns? It takes leaping into the unknown .. listening to the nudges of the spirit .. and TRUSTING that you will be okay .. a ‘leap of faith’.

The hero’s journey

Most book and movie plots revolve around this leap into the unknown and the transformation that comes out of it. Following the spirit’s ‘call to adventure’, the ‘hero’ of the story at first refuses the call (our ego knows it isn’t ‘safe’ and resists). In life that’s often where the story ends and we go back to doing the same old same old. But if we follow the call, and jump into the unknown, now we’re on our ‘hero’s journey’.

My latest leap

Just over two months ago, determined to find clarity, direction and focus in my business ventures, I set a ‘launch’ date, and announced it to my coaching group and on my Instagram feed.

I chose the full moon two months ahead as my date. This made sense since I’ve been using the new moon each month to set intentions and reflect on that month’s progress. I figured two months would give me time to really dive into creating and exploring in order to develop my mould making skills and produce some pieces before I needed to get serious about how to make money.

Enter the free fall

Setting the date was a leap into the unknown with the fear and exhiliration of the free fall but at that point plenty of time before I would ‘hit’ the end. What I’d given myself, and my spirit, was SPACE and PERMISSION.

I set to creating without regard to sale-ability or practicality. Starting with tiny pieces and low risk I built up in size and complexity as the weeks went on. With YouTube as my teacher, Spotify as my inspiration and my credit card as my funder I gave my spirit full rein.

As the deadline drew closer the pressure intensified and my ego which had thrived a lifetime on the identity of ‘not knowing’ was being challenged by the threat of having to ‘make a decision’ .. I felt like an alarm was going off inside me. 

The day before my ‘launch’ date was the deadline for entries in a small sculpture prize exhibition. I’d only just (thanks to my deadline) completed a piece that I felt symbolises my ‘message’: Sprite — spirit of play, a maquette for a play sculpture. Inspired by my sculpture buddy’s entering two pieces in the competition I also submitted an actual ‘play sculpture’: Fingerboard Park, in it’s unfinished state.

The process of creating and considering the desired purpose of my work brought the clarity I had hoped for, as I started to consider the saleability of pieces and potential for making a living, in alignment with my top values of curiosity, connection and creativity. Public Play Sculpture had long been my big dream, but now I could see a clearer path to making it happen. 

Breaking the circle

The universe is always sending us messages, and on the day of launching a strange thing happened. My nephew had been trying on some rings I’d made the night before, and one became stuck on his finger. The fire and rescue was called in to help and, using a saw and leverage, cut through the ring and opened it. Given the timing and circumstances this felt like more than just a bizarre coincidence.

From my old desire to ‘close circles’ — sealing off circles in handwriting, changing my name from C to O, and constantly needing to understand things — to the feeling of being stuck in a loop .. this broken circle felt significant. One message I take from it is that, by choosing and taking action, I break out of the loop.

Enter freedom

When we leap into the unknown we open up space for spirit to enter and support us. 

What is your soul calling you to do? Is there something that feel right (but scary)?

Maybe it’s time to leap?

Speak it out loud. Make the commitment .. and then .. JUMP!

Your soul wants to evolve.

Love,
Orly

Into the Quantum

Into the Quantum

by | Feb 7, 2021 | Blog

We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started 
And know the place for the first time.
– T.S.Eliot

Hi and welcome to the Quantum!  It’s a place I’ve begun exploring, where anything and everything is possible.  How is your 2021 going so far?  Have you noticed any shifts?

What is the Quantum?

One of my teacher says “What is, is, all else is quantum”.  It’s taken a bit for me to get my head around this, but essentially, the Quantum is everything that doesn’t ‘exist’ (in 3D) right now but exists in the infinite possibilities.  Just because something exists in our experienced reality doesn’t negate everything else.  It could all be happening side by side.  As I see it, stepping in the Quantum is stepping out of limited thinking and into the realms of infinite possibility.  In the past this would have felt daunting to me, but right now it’s beginning to feel expansive and exciting.  

We shall not cease from exploration

With curiosity as one of my top three values, exploration is an essential part of my existence.  And perhaps for that reason, I have tended to be drawn to things I didn’t understand.  Confusion was also a natural state for me.  But happy to say I am finally shifting from confusion to clarity in multiple areas of my life and, rather than spinning my wheels, I’m finally making progress.

The end of all our exploring

I see life as a spiral process of evolution, where we return to the same lessons but each time with a new level of understanding.  In this way the process becomes meaningful and purposeful.  Perhaps its that flash of deeper insight that feels so nourishing and makes the travails seem worth it.

Three weeks ago I had a profound experience of this, when I attended a ‘Mould Making and Casting’ workshop as part of Bellingen Shire’s Arts Week.

To arrive where we started

Over the years I have done a lot of ‘model-making’ in all sorts of materials and sizes.  But apart from (and perhaps due to) an unsatisfying experience in year 12, I have not used rubber moulds.  Now, looking back, it’s like I went ‘off track’ at that point in year 12.  I remember the moment .. standing outside my art room at high school and a friend mentioning she had put down architecture as her top preference.  I’d never even thought of architecture but it struck me as fascinating.  It was the mysterious and esoteric quality of it that drew me in.  That was 33 years ago.  

At the time I was creating a sculpture out of clay for my HSC art project.  I couldn’t fire it because of the wire armature, so I had to create a rubber mould and plaster sleeve in order to cast it in resin.  I remember ringing around Sydney to find the ingredients, muddling my way through the process, with little guidance, and ending up with a disappointing result.  The sculpture was of a naked female rising in ecstasy and representing the state of enlightenment.  I saw it as a maquette for a larger than life size piece.  That was my vision.  

And know the place for the first time

And so, three weeks ago, in the midst of a lot happening and very little forethought, I went along to the workshop with artist Jim Hood.  Jim created a sculpture I fell in love with and purchased three months ago, and it turns out he lives in the same street as me but I’d never met him.  I was so blown away by the techniques he shared and the possibilities I could see that my journey suddenly started to make sense.  And the workshop space I’d created under my house before I moved up to Fernmount, with my vision of working from home creating sculptures, suddenly started to feel like a possibility.

The end of all our exploring

And so it is that tomorrow I begin a new journey as I start the New Enterprise Incentive Scheme (NEIS) program and begin to put together a business plan for this new iteration of my business.

My plan is to create moulds and replicas of my sculpture pieces, and to offer this as a service to others.  And I’ll continue to work towards the first (and subsequent) Cloudscape sculptures.  

The peace of clarity

Searching for work I could do that felt inspiring and aligned and that I could do until I die has been a mission of mine for most of my life.  And I feel like I have found it.  The peace that comes from this ‘no longer searching’ is huge.  Finally, the energy I’ve spent searching can be put into creation.  I feel as though I can finally relax – and this makes possible so much else in my life.  Thank you Universe!!

 Magical journeys

There’s more I could share about various other journeys I’ve been on lately including Quantum Magic, Money Manifestation Magic, and Lifebook – all three of which have been powerful, mind-blowing and inspiring.  But this ‘arrival’ of sorts in terms of my career is the biggest breakthrough by far, so I will leave it at that for now.  

How about you?  Have you had any big shifts?  Is there anything you like to share?  I’d love to hear from you.

Thanks for being here.

Love,
Orly