We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time.
Hi and welcome to the Quantum! It’s a place I’ve begun exploring, where anything and everything is possible. How is your 2021 going so far? Have you noticed any shifts?
What is the Quantum?
One of my teacher says “What is, is, all else is quantum”. It’s taken a bit for me to get my head around this, but essentially, the Quantum is everything that doesn’t ‘exist’ (in 3D) right now but exists in the infinite possibilities. Just because something exists in our experienced reality doesn’t negate everything else. It could all be happening side by side. As I see it, stepping in the Quantum is stepping out of limited thinking and into the realms of infinite possibility. In the past this would have felt daunting to me, but right now it’s beginning to feel expansive and exciting.
We shall not cease from exploration
With curiosity as one of my top three values, exploration is an essential part of my existence. And perhaps for that reason, I have tended to be drawn to things I didn’t understand. Confusion was also a natural state for me. But happy to say I am finally shifting from confusion to clarity in multiple areas of my life and, rather than spinning my wheels, I’m finally making progress.
The end of all our exploring
I see life as a spiral process of evolution, where we return to the same lessons but each time with a new level of understanding. In this way the process becomes meaningful and purposeful. Perhaps its that flash of deeper insight that feels so nourishing and makes the travails seem worth it.
Three weeks ago I had a profound experience of this, when I attended a ‘Mould Making and Casting’ workshop as part of Bellingen Shire’s Arts Week.
To arrive where we started
Over the years I have done a lot of ‘model-making’ in all sorts of materials and sizes. But apart from (and perhaps due to) an unsatisfying experience in year 12, I have not used rubber moulds. Now, looking back, it’s like I went ‘off track’ at that point in year 12. I remember the moment .. standing outside my art room at high school and a friend mentioning she had put down architecture as her top preference. I’d never even thought of architecture but it struck me as fascinating. It was the mysterious and esoteric quality of it that drew me in. That was 33 years ago.
At the time I was creating a sculpture out of clay for my HSC art project. I couldn’t fire it because of the wire armature, so I had to create a rubber mould and plaster sleeve in order to cast it in resin. I remember ringing around Sydney to find the ingredients, muddling my way through the process, with little guidance, and ending up with a disappointing result. The sculpture was of a naked female rising in ecstasy and representing the state of enlightenment. I saw it as a maquette for a larger than life size piece. That was my vision.
And know the place for the first time
And so, three weeks ago, in the midst of a lot happening and very little forethought, I went along to the workshop with artist Jim Hood. Jim created a sculpture I fell in love with and purchased three months ago, and it turns out he lives in the same street as me but I’d never met him. I was so blown away by the techniques he shared and the possibilities I could see that my journey suddenly started to make sense. And the workshop space I’d created under my house before I moved up to Fernmount, with my vision of working from home creating sculptures, suddenly started to feel like a possibility.
The end of all our exploring
And so it is that tomorrow I begin a new journey as I start the New Enterprise Incentive Scheme (NEIS) program and begin to put together a business plan for this new iteration of my business.
My plan is to create moulds and replicas of my sculpture pieces, and to offer this as a service to others. And I’ll continue to work towards the first (and subsequent) Cloudscape sculptures.
The peace of clarity
Searching for work I could do that felt inspiring and aligned and that I could do until I die has been a mission of mine for most of my life. And I feel like I have found it. The peace that comes from this ‘no longer searching’ is huge. Finally, the energy I’ve spent searching can be put into creation. I feel as though I can finally relax – and this makes possible so much else in my life. Thank you Universe!!
There’s more I could share about various other journeys I’ve been on lately including Quantum Magic, Money Manifestation Magic, and Lifebook – all three of which have been powerful, mind-blowing and inspiring. But this ‘arrival’ of sorts in terms of my career is the biggest breakthrough by far, so I will leave it at that for now.
How about you? Have you had any big shifts? Is there anything you like to share? I’d love to hear from you.
Thanks for being here.
You are the universe in ecstatic motion
Hello and Welcome to 2021.
How do you feel about this year so far? Are you setting any goals or are you simply in for the ride? It looks like being another wild one.
My word for 2021 came out of left field .. GODDESS. It’s a word I’d have felt uncomfortable with in the past but feels perfect for now. GODDESS is a celebration of nature, the divine, connection, creation, cycles, devotion, beauty, power, joy, adoration and wildness.
The joy of creation
This is my year for creation – starting with writing a new story for my life. Most of our lives are repeated patterns, rehashing past beliefs and experiences. But they don’t need to be. We have so much power to create our reality. Science continues to prove this. We can be the author of our destiny .. and this is my intention this year.
You can be the author of your life
I’ve joined a program called Lifebook on the Mindvalley platform in which, over six weeks, you write your vision, beliefs, purpose and strategy for your life. The program breaks your life down into twelve categories and moves through the envisioning process one category at a time, culminating in the twelfth category of Life Vision. So far I’ve looked at Health & Fitness and Intellectual Life and I can see how interconnected the parts are. I’m inspired to take charge of my life, to become aware of blind spots and to be more conscious. And I’m particularly excited about getting clarity on my Life Vision. I’ll keep you posted.
Learning to let go
As I write my story I’m aware one of my strengths, tenacity, has also been debilitating. Hanging on and not letting go has enabled me to push through on things that required endurance (like my two architecture degrees) but also stopped me from letting go at times when that might have served me better.
Where I’m particularly seeing the benefits of holding on less tightly is decision making. Making decisions has felt overly significant to me when I felt I couldn’t change my mind and was stuck with whatever I chose. But as I re-envision my life I’m giving myself permission to change things as I go. I can now see my tenacity as a form of rigidity and fear. I’m shifting instead to flow and trust. Phew.
A Year of Miracles
Finally .. this year, I’m reading the daily prompts for the 365 day ‘Course in Miracles’ – a process of shifting your perceptions. I started off with reading a simplified adaptation with a book by one of my teachers who published ‘leave this book in your bathroom’ last December. Then yesterday I felt compelled to look at the original text as well to compare. I’ll let you know how it goes .. next year if not before. Have you read (or heard of) A Course in Miracles?
How about you?
Where are you at? What are your thoughts or plans? I’d love to hear whatever you’d like to share.
Wishing you miracles, creativity and goddess energy for an amazing and successful year in 2021.
I’ve now done three weeks of #apoemaday on Instagram. Check it out HERE.
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Falling in love with oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.
– Oscar Wilde
Less than two weeks until the end of a momentous 2020 year. It’s been a year of shake up on many levels. Even tonight, as I prepare to drive to Sydney tomorrow morning, there is a threat of lockdown and changed plans. It’s been a rollercoaster of a year, and perhaps more specifically for me, an emotional rollercoaster .. which I see as a good thing since it’s a lot better than a flatline. And I’ve been practicing being present to feelings and present to ‘life’.
A time of change
Today is the solstice and again a time of change. There is a lot of talk this year about a big cosmic event happening today as well with planets and stars aligning and predictions that these changes represent a shift from the patriarchy back to the matriarchy. Regardless where you sit in relation to such prophecies, I’m staying open and hopeful about it. Change feels like a good thing to me.
It’s easy to say change feels good when life feels all topsy turvy already. Anyway, one change I’ve started implementing is getting in touch with my ‘inner child’.
A Little One (LO) has joined me on my journey (see photo above) and she is much bolder, more definite and more confident than me so I’m letting her lead the way. She’s in charge and I’m simply helping her. But she’s only three so .. don’t expect perfection :). I’ll pass over to her.
How are you going. Mum and I are building a sculpture and the opening date is 211112 .. the 12th of November next year. She’s building it for me because she knows how much I will love it. i know she has lots of grown up reasons for building it too but mostly it’s for us little ones .. the little one that lives in everyone.
Embracing the nonsensical
OM here again. This is probably nonsensical for some of you. That’s fine. Unsubscribe is below if it bothers you. I did a whole lot of explorations since our last email that I was going to share .. but it took me down pretty low into a state of self (and other) judgement and was very much coming from my adult self .. and right now I’m more interested in listening to my child self. It’s her time now. Feel free to ask her any questions. You might get a nonsensical answer, but sometimes life is too serious and a nonsensical answer is the best.
Oh .. and we’re going to make a picture book together too. Filled with plenty of nonsense.
Time for Presence
And now, in this Christmas time which has been, for me, destroyed by an overemphasis on presents (and lack of presence) .. I wish you an abundance of presence and connection.
Until next time..
Weaving a new future together :)
The day after sending my last email, where I discussed a deep-rooted belief that ‘I have to be selfless and self-denying’, a new video by Teal Swan came out on Enmeshment Trauma and how to heal it. I think most people have this to some degree as we adapt to fit into society or family. I recommend the video and would love to hear any thoughts you have about it.
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