You are the universe in ecstatic motion
Hello and Welcome to 2021.
How do you feel about this year so far? Are you setting any goals or are you simply in for the ride? It looks like being another wild one.
My word for 2021 came out of left field .. GODDESS. It’s a word I’d have felt uncomfortable with in the past but feels perfect for now. GODDESS is a celebration of nature, the divine, connection, creation, cycles, devotion, beauty, power, joy, adoration and wildness.
The joy of creation
This is my year for creation – starting with writing a new story for my life. Most of our lives are repeated patterns, rehashing past beliefs and experiences. But they don’t need to be. We have so much power to create our reality. Science continues to prove this. We can be the author of our destiny .. and this is my intention this year.
You can be the author of your life
I’ve joined a program called Lifebook on the Mindvalley platform in which, over six weeks, you write your vision, beliefs, purpose and strategy for your life. The program breaks your life down into twelve categories and moves through the envisioning process one category at a time, culminating in the twelfth category of Life Vision. So far I’ve looked at Health & Fitness and Intellectual Life and I can see how interconnected the parts are. I’m inspired to take charge of my life, to become aware of blind spots and to be more conscious. And I’m particularly excited about getting clarity on my Life Vision. I’ll keep you posted.
Learning to let go
As I write my story I’m aware one of my strengths, tenacity, has also been debilitating. Hanging on and not letting go has enabled me to push through on things that required endurance (like my two architecture degrees) but also stopped me from letting go at times when that might have served me better.
Where I’m particularly seeing the benefits of holding on less tightly is decision making. Making decisions has felt overly significant to me when I felt I couldn’t change my mind and was stuck with whatever I chose. But as I re-envision my life I’m giving myself permission to change things as I go. I can now see my tenacity as a form of rigidity and fear. I’m shifting instead to flow and trust. Phew.
A Year of Miracles
Finally .. this year, I’m reading the daily prompts for the 365 day ‘Course in Miracles’ – a process of shifting your perceptions. I started off with reading a simplified adaptation with a book by one of my teachers who published ‘leave this book in your bathroom’ last December. Then yesterday I felt compelled to look at the original text as well to compare. I’ll let you know how it goes .. next year if not before. Have you read (or heard of) A Course in Miracles?
How about you?
Where are you at? What are your thoughts or plans? I’d love to hear whatever you’d like to share.
Wishing you miracles, creativity and goddess energy for an amazing and successful year in 2021.
I’ve now done three weeks of #apoemaday on Instagram. Check it out HERE.
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Falling in love with oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.
– Oscar Wilde
Less than two weeks until the end of a momentous 2020 year. It’s been a year of shake up on many levels. Even tonight, as I prepare to drive to Sydney tomorrow morning, there is a threat of lockdown and changed plans. It’s been a rollercoaster of a year, and perhaps more specifically for me, an emotional rollercoaster .. which I see as a good thing since it’s a lot better than a flatline. And I’ve been practicing being present to feelings and present to ‘life’.
A time of change
Today is the solstice and again a time of change. There is a lot of talk this year about a big cosmic event happening today as well with planets and stars aligning and predictions that these changes represent a shift from the patriarchy back to the matriarchy. Regardless where you sit in relation to such prophecies, I’m staying open and hopeful about it. Change feels like a good thing to me.
It’s easy to say change feels good when life feels all topsy turvy already. Anyway, one change I’ve started implementing is getting in touch with my ‘inner child’.
A Little One (LO) has joined me on my journey (see photo above) and she is much bolder, more definite and more confident than me so I’m letting her lead the way. She’s in charge and I’m simply helping her. But she’s only three so .. don’t expect perfection :). I’ll pass over to her.
How are you going. Mum and I are building a sculpture and the opening date is 211112 .. the 12th of November next year. She’s building it for me because she knows how much I will love it. i know she has lots of grown up reasons for building it too but mostly it’s for us little ones .. the little one that lives in everyone.
Embracing the nonsensical
OM here again. This is probably nonsensical for some of you. That’s fine. Unsubscribe is below if it bothers you. I did a whole lot of explorations since our last email that I was going to share .. but it took me down pretty low into a state of self (and other) judgement and was very much coming from my adult self .. and right now I’m more interested in listening to my child self. It’s her time now. Feel free to ask her any questions. You might get a nonsensical answer, but sometimes life is too serious and a nonsensical answer is the best.
Oh .. and we’re going to make a picture book together too. Filled with plenty of nonsense.
Time for Presence
And now, in this Christmas time which has been, for me, destroyed by an overemphasis on presents (and lack of presence) .. I wish you an abundance of presence and connection.
Until next time..
Weaving a new future together :)
The day after sending my last email, where I discussed a deep-rooted belief that ‘I have to be selfless and self-denying’, a new video by Teal Swan came out on Enmeshment Trauma and how to heal it. I think most people have this to some degree as we adapt to fit into society or family. I recommend the video and would love to hear any thoughts you have about it.
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The alchemical process of turning lead into gold happens because of something being taken away. So too, self alchemy begins with what we are willing to let go of or give away.
– Teal Swan
Have you heard the story of the Golden Buddha? During a violent invasion a huge, solid gold buddha at a monastery in Thailand was protected from plunder by being covered in terracotta and coloured glass. Over time the knowledge of the existence of the Golden Buddha was lost. It was discovered by accident, almost two hundred years later in 1957 when the buddha was being moved to a new location. Cracks in the clay surface revealed the gold within and the Golden Buddha was revealed, perfectly preserved.
This story has become an analogy to what happens to us in our lives. Our gold, or our essence, becomes overlaid with the ‘mud’ of our limiting thinking, unconscious conditioning and layers of human experience, and we lose sight of our essence and of what truly lights us up.
We are not human beings having a spiritual experience, we are spiritual beings having a human experience.
In order to fully embrace our being, our essence,we need to differentiate our human experience and ‘life lessons’ from our core truth. It’s easy to get lost in this process .. to get stuck in the mud so to speak.
Having spent a lifetime searching for what I could do that would be in alignment with my natural strengths and gifts, I’ve gone down path after path only to find yet another ‘dead end’. In many ways the journey was the destination except that the lack of clarity and feeling of lostness has had me return to a sense of hopelessness and despair time and again.
But over the past week I had a breakthrough that has transformed the way I look at my life. This new perspective has offered a sense of hope and clarity and shifts a lot of the self judgement that has weighed me down. This shift is the result of an exercise I did as part of a program I’m in. The exercise, which is very simple (but not necessarily easy) is to come up with your top three values.
Your values are those things that are really important to you and motivate you on a day to day basis. They can be found by looking back at some of the turning points of your life and defining what thoughts or feelings were behind the decisions you took. They can also be found in looking at where your time and energy go each day, or identifying peak moments in your life.
If we aren’t aligned with our values we can spend a lot of time and energy striving to reach something we believe will fulfil us only to meet our goal and find we feel disappointed or empty inside.
I went into the exercise of defining my top values with hope and excitement, only to end up in a swamp-like state of helplessness and despair. Coming up with a big list of values wasn’t too hard, but when I tried to prioritise the values was when I got stuck. In trying to choose one value over another I went into a deep-rooted limiting belief of “I don’t know” and ended up on the coaching call with the exercise unfinished. But when my coach, Karen, asked me what my top three values were, I looked down at my list and rattled off three, almost without thinking – connection, creativity and curiosity.
She then asked me, “If you were living a life that had connection, creativity and curiosity in it .. how would you feel?”
And my response: “I would feel satisfied, excited, inspired, meaning, purpose, grateful, driven.”
My response is so enlightening to me. So much of my life has been driven by other people’s values which, though they are all valid, have often left me feeling unsatisfied, depressed, ungrateful, unmotivated and lacking in meaning and purpose. This exercise is SO powerful.
When Karen asked what actions I could take this week in alignment with my values, I thought of this newsletter, and how it aligns with my values of curiosity, creativity and connection. And similarly, the Cloudscape sculpture is totally in alignment too.
One of the most damaging things we do to ourselves is to compare ourselves to others, and to other’s experiences. ‘Comparison is the thief of joy’ is such a true statement. Instead you need to get clear on what it is that is truly important to YOU – and to bring love and attention to that. Being clear on your values is a great way of staying aligned.
Your value, your essence, your gold, is often invisible to you, trapped under layers of society conditioning and adaptation to the needs, desires, opinions and expectations of others. But it’s there. And by discovering and aligning your life to your values, you can bring your best self to the world and feel more purpose, joy and connection to yourself. And in this way, aligning with our values helps us to bring more love and light to the world.
I would LOVE for you to identify your top values and for you to let me know what they are. And if you’d like some help identifying your top values, please get in touch!
For a simple guide to help you to find your top values, click here ..(link coming soon)..